Good eyelid weight

Hi everyone my name is Sarah ,and I am a long time sufferer of ted.i was diagnosed in 2016 and have had two operations so far to try and rectify my upper eyelid retraction..unfortunately ,both surgeries have been unsuccessful and my eyelid is still retracted..the surgeon wants to put a gold weight in my eyelid to try and bring it down into place.but i am scared and worried that it might not work for me and scared that my eyelid will be too low once the weight is put in..I am looking for any advice regarding this type of surgery,if anyone has had a weight put in their eyelid,or just any advice really..it has ruined my self confidence ,I hate being in pictures etc,and hide behind dark glasses as I feel ugly.it truly is a horrible disease👎🏻🥲